I was chatting candidly to a girlfriend the other day, when I said the following; ‘I’m the fixer. The one that gets pulled in during a crisis. I fix the issue, then they go out to celebrate with someone else’. I was talking about, the ever evolving, situation with quite a few of my friends. I’m forgotten most of the …
Nervous Parent / Calm Baby
The first 6 months of my daughters life, were full of checks, measurements and assessments. The vaccinations, the vaccination related illnesses and that bloody little red book! After the first year, you are pretty much, left to it. Left to enjoy your child, find your stride as a mother and hone your parenting techniques. As the second birthday approaches, their …
5 Minutes to Glow
In the final stage of my late 30s, I am trying to roll with the changes. Nature has been kind. I don’t have much grey. I’m in reasonable shape. I still look young. I even got asked for ID, at my local supermarket last month! I will revel in that little ego-boost for a while. The days of sleeping in …
Bad Day
I get a few of these every year. We all get them I guess. There is nothing quite like the power of a bad day. It completely derails me. Shakes up all my values, thoughts and feelings. Sometimes it’s triggered by someone else. Sometimes I set it off myself. One of those days, when I wake up feeling overwhelmed, …
My Girl
My darling daughter. I have wanted you, my whole life. To be able to carry you, for nine months, was a blessing and a relief. My need to love and protect you, took shape within weeks. As you occupied more and more of my being, I felt you in my soul. Each kick, hiccup and stretch, was a wonderful reminder, …
Long Term Relationship
My husband and I have been together 5 years; known each other for 10. It’s safe to say, we are comfortable around each other. We have definitely reached the Long Term Relationship status. When I look back on the night’s out, cosy evenings in and overall effort from our early days, the present is markedly different. The mystique of our …
Piece by Piece
He’ll never walk away He’ll never break her heart He’ll take care of things, he’ll love her Piece by piece, he restored my faith That a man can be kind and a father can be great – Kelly Clarkson Father’s Day was this week. Ours went by, with a nice personalised card and gift for my husband, followed by dinner with …
Toddler Bootcamp
I am so proud of my little girl. She’s learning so much, so quickly. Talking away all day. Running around and full of life. It’s beautiful. She makes me a better person. She makes me feel like I can do anything! She is very bossy and running a very tight ship! Her words, are still a little hit and miss …
Last Words
My Grandads funeral took place this week. I find funerals in general, a bit weird. Whether you are completely distraught or find the whole thing creepy and awkward – there you all are, side by side. Close friends and relatives standing shoulder to shoulder, with people they love, despise and don’t even know. I’m so sorry for your loss My …
6 Months
Half a year. 26 weeks. 182 days. Despite the the calculations, I am not actively clock watching. Just coming to terms, with another milestone, that is looming. My 40th. The expectation to be happy, settled and financially stable is real. To have travelled. To be secure. To be on a path to success. To be less chubby. To have found …