I‘m usually able to keep my crazy in check, I’m the girl that is often asked, “How do you do it?”. I’m not sure what people would think if I told them the truth. I guess on the outside, I do present a very different persona, to the whirlwind that’s happening inside. I don’t like to cause a fuss or …
Mary Poppins
I used to love the summer. The beautiful blue sky, the warm sunshine in the morning pouring through the windows. My hair swept back in a ponytail, wearing any old shades that worked with my outfit. The smell of sunscreen. The sound of ice cubes clinking in a glass of something fruity. Catching the sun on my shoulders. Driving …
Probably Stress
Don’t blame it on the sunshine Don’t blame it on the moonlight Don’t blame it on good times Blame it on the stress!! I suffer from health anxiety. I am so pleased that the previous name for this condition has been launched out the window. Hypochondria does not describe this horrifying and relentless condition at all. Everyone knew a hypochondriac, …
Letters to Google Photos
Dear Google Photos What a wonderful invention you are. Holding all my media close so I can always look back on every moment. Every baby milestone. Every night out. Every Christmas. Every Birthday. Thank you for making beautiful compilations of my weeks and months. Thank you for the videos showing a montage of pictures and clips of our trips and …
Compass
“Everything is normal. You are normal” Now that’s what I like to hear from a doctor! I got that this week. My liver is normal, inflammatory markers for my Colitis are normal. Palpitations and feeling generally numb due to anxiety, yup that’s a thing and that’s perfectly normal. One thing my doctor did say was the C word. Counselling. I …
Meh Moments
We are currently enjoying the last day of complete lockdown. From tomorrow, some schools return; markets and car showrooms reopen and members of the public are allowed to socialise in small groups of 6. Still socially distant though, no hugs and kisses. We are only allowed to meet outside, no home visits. It’s tentative, it’s conditional but it’s a …
Dear Vital Organs
I’m sorry if I haven’t shown you the love and respect you deserve but please stay with me. I will do better. It’s been a rough few months health wise. February and March were very stressful. It started with an acute attack of palpitations at the start of February. They were so intense, I honestly thought I was having a …
#Disability
Times may be changing when it comes to talking disability. Amazing individuals, groups and companies are making waves, pushing boundaries and showing the world that ‘This Girl Can’ every single day. Having grown up in a world before this time, I find myself struggling with the label. Being born with facial palsy, I learned first hand and from day one, …
Trust the Process
A dark cloud loomed over my January this year. The cloud was hanging right over my heart at Christmas too. No matter how I spun the situation, my anxious mind had a negative answer for it. I didn’t feel positive at all. That cloud was in my way. Much like the beloved children’s book, ‘We’re Going on a Bear Hunt’… …
Meeting the Minister
Sat in reception, waiting for my meeting with the Minister; I couldn’t help but have a last minute flap. What am I doing here? What am I going to say? I have not even read the Bible! I’ve read parts of it but my knowledge is weak at best. How would he feel knowing that I was meeting him for …