We are now in the first few days of 2019. Hangover gone. Left overs, hopefully, gone. Resolutions made. Possibilities…endless.
My Christmas and New Year celebrations, were an equal mix of lovely, awkward and germ-filled. My cooking was superb, no need for modesty, I rocked. Christmas Day with my husband and daughter was lovely. Nothing like watching my daughter, experience Christmas in all its magical wonder. Cuddling up to my husband, at the end of a successful day and watching a soppy festive movie, wine in hand…heaven.
Boxing Day was awkward. My family arrived late. My mum was still wrapping presents, in my room before the grandchildren arrived. What the hell had she been doing?? Other than nothing! My brother was the last to arrive. Conversation was pleasant. More civil chit chat, than a warm family gathering. The inevitable emotional toast, to my late Grandfather. He would have been 88 years old and this year was the first without him. Hugs were wooden. Group photos were staged. I was glad when it was over.
I hosted the in-laws two days later. More eating, followed by a relaxing New Years Eve; was all my other half could cope with. Man flu had knocked him over after Boxing Day so rest was top priority.
So here we are…January. Already had my driver side wing mirror, fly off on the motorway, shattering in the road behind me. Had to call a breakdown service to my house today, as my car wouldn’t start. New battery now in place. Ahead of my NHS health check tomorrow, I worked out my BMI. It’s 25.3. I’m classed as overweight and it’s recommended that I lose at least 5% of my current weight. That’s depressing. I’m giving that a great deal of thought, as I eat my 6th Guylian Praline Seahorse. I feel a bit sick.
So for 2019;
I want to spend more quality time with my husband and daughter. Develop new relationships. Be more at ease and comfortable in my own company. Find an activity, that I enjoy, that will actively help contribute to my happiness. Spend less time on my phone. Drink less alcohol. Learn to let the past go. Learn to be ok, not pleasing people. Lose 5% of my current weight. Enjoy the small moments. Be more selfish sometimes. Get more sleep.
I don’t want another 2018. Making one change or several changes will achieve that. I want a happy new year and only I can influence that.
All I have to do right now, is make a start. The chocolate is back in the fridge. Time for a cup of tea and some self control.