I have had a very different life to most people
That was the sentence I used in my very first blog post. It was not cryptic. It is an actual fact. Over the next 3 posts, I will share the details of my life and why it is so different. For me; more than anyone else. It is not an easy read and has not been easy to write but it is my life.
Both Sides Now is a beautiful song written and performed by Joni Mitchell. It appeared in Love Actually, at the poignant moment where Emma Thompson’s character, found out that her husband had been unfaithful. Her heartbreak and strength shown in full force, in two minutes of film, will stay with my for all time. I relate to her moment. I relate to these lyrics.
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
From up and down and still somehow
It’s cloud’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way
You leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away
From give and take and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day.
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
This song has come to mean so much to me. It has even more relevance now as I share with you how I ended up here.
Next up. The Journal – Part One