I have known you for many years. I wish I had known you all my life.
You are the classic accidental friend. We met at work. I was your boss. You were the immaculately dressed assistant, with the big smile. Instantly warm, kind and so very funny.
I can honestly say, I have never laughed so much, with anyone else but you. Late nights, cigarette breaks and a hundred coffees. You mean everything to me.
I wish you could see past the battle you have with yourself. I wish you could see how much you are loved.
My historian. My scholar. My friend.
We can easily talk away the hours. Discussing books, movies and the awesomeness that is James Bond. I remember how you swept me off my feet and spun me around, in the middle of a supermarket. Nothing had happened, we were just saying “Hi”.
When you visited London, we met for dinner. I brought my soon-to-be-husband. You brought your umbrella. We dined and drank, as people frequenting Soho do. We laughed until late. You gave me your umbrella, as you turned to leave. You were happy, charismatic and confident.
Every time I think of you – I see you, that night in the rain. I was meant to meet you. You were meant to meet me. You will shine again. Diamonds always find a way.
Mental health issues are out there and being discussed. You are more than an issue. You are more than a statistic. I got you.
I am here. Listening. Talking. Whatever you need. Whenever you need it. There is nothing too big. No problem too insignificant.
I love you. Don’t give up on you. I won’t give up you. I know you are still in there. While you are at war with your mind, know that I am with you – you are not alone.
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