Trigger warning. This post contains a lot of medical information and upsetting details. These are all true events and represent my experience and beliefs only. 1995 was the year my health anxiety started. Following my last post I thought I would share a bit more of my personal journey. Sorry if this is a tough read – it’s been a …
18 Houses
This week, for reasons best known to someone else, I sat down and wrote with surprising accuracy; the addresses of all the houses I have lived in since birth. I never had that childhood home brimming with memories to cherish. That stable history of addresses, consisting of a couple of street names, that can be recalled with ease. I have …
The Breakdown
I‘m usually able to keep my crazy in check, I’m the girl that is often asked, “How do you do it?”. I’m not sure what people would think if I told them the truth. I guess on the outside, I do present a very different persona, to the whirlwind that’s happening inside. I don’t like to cause a fuss or …
Me and my CV
Well it’s about that time. Time to dust off the ole CV and put myself out there again. My plan to venture out into the workplace has been delayed due to Covid and the 3 lockdowns, that took place but now as the mist of that begins to clear; I am daring to dip my toe in the waters of …
Mary Poppins
I used to love the summer. The beautiful blue sky, the warm sunshine in the morning pouring through the windows. My hair swept back in a ponytail, wearing any old shades that worked with my outfit. The smell of sunscreen. The sound of ice cubes clinking in a glass of something fruity. Catching the sun on my shoulders. Driving …
Bucket List
A wonderful list of amazing things to do, see and achieve before we die or rather bluntly, kick the bucket. Usually we start preparing this list on receiving confirmation that our time on this earth is coming to an end. This was my first thought when my friend casually dropped into conversation, that she was working on her bucket list. …
Happy New Year
2021 is finally here! After a lovely, albeit quiet Christmas, came a very odd New Years Eve. The chimes of Big Ben rang out over an empty London. Our impressive fireworks were replaced by a light show, that accompanied a running commentary of all the challenges of 2020. No one needed reminding of that! Then it was over. Not …
Letters to Google Photos
Dear Google Photos What a wonderful invention you are. Holding all my media close so I can always look back on every moment. Every baby milestone. Every night out. Every Christmas. Every Birthday. Thank you for making beautiful compilations of my weeks and months. Thank you for the videos showing a montage of pictures and clips of our trips and …
Q & A (Questions and Anxiety)
“Life doesn’t get easier or more forgiving, we get stronger and more resilient.” – Steve Maraboli Well isn’t that a bummer. There was me hoping that life would get easier for all of us at some point and the strength and resilience that are acquired, with the passing of time, would only ever be needed on the odd occasion. This …
Switch Off
This week I finished reading a book. I have been reading this book for 2 years. It was not a big book. It wasn’t complicated or in any way taxing but it still took me and my brain 2 years to read it. 2 YEARS! I’m a far cry from the girl who would read a book in a …